ABOUT ME...

I am the mom of a gorgeous Cleft Palate Baby boy and here is our story...

It is absolutely amazing how the birth of your own little angel, can change your life completely!  The feeling you get when you hear your baby's voice for the first time, you simply can not describe to anyone!  I will never forget the look in my husband's eyes when he first saw our angel!  So much love in his eyes! What an incredible feeling!

I will never forget the pain that I felt, there in the OR, when I heard the doctor tell my husband that our perfect little angel has a cleft palate.  Both his soft and hard palate never developed.

The first few weeks were a complete roller coaster ride.  The hospital offered me no moral or emotional support at all.  My family was in shock.  My mother-in-law was hysterical and started phoning everyone she knew for help.  My mom was in tears.  But my husband and I had no time to grieve.  We simply had to cope. There was no time for tears, because we knew that we had a new life to support.  But we had no idea how!

With the help of the people at the Panorama Breastfeeding Clinic and an amazing Medela Bottle, we slowly taught our angel how to feed.

I have never in my life felt so alone.  Those first few months were plainly said, HELL.  You're confused, scared, VERY scared all the time.  You have no idea what you are doing.  And you have no one to help you. You are on your knees constantly!  

...So this is my blog for moms who are just as scared as I am.  This is my way of thanking God for giving me this amazing little boy.  Yes, today I am truly thankful for every second with my little angel.  In my eyes he is truly perfect.  I love him with all my heart.  I know now that I was put on this earth to be his mommy and to support moms out there who are going through the same things I do.